Lord, Hear this as my prayer. I am not very much into saying words but I am good at writing them down. All my feelings expressed into words written on a paper or typed on a through a visible notepad on the screen. All these ways Lord I communicate to you. Please take this as my prayer.
These past few days and months, I have fallen. Fallen hard for someone I had loved before. He does not love me back because his heart belongs to another, His eyes look into someone else’s and his laughs are brought about by this wonderful girl. Lord, how I wish so hard to be the reason of his happiness just like she is. How I wish I could make his day just by being there beside him instead of feeling like I annoy him so much. Lord, I asked for signs to you before to know my place in his heart, I asked stupid things like “Lord, if he truly loves me then make him reply to my text.” and I don’t want to do that anymore. Lord, show me, guide me, tell me if I should give up, If I should quit trying to make him feel the same way because clearly he doesn’t feel the same way. Lord, I have lost to her, this wonderful girl. I can’t help it, she’s perfect, I’m not. his eyes only see her and fails to even notice me. Lord, help me please, I have fallen too hard and it hurts me so much. I act like I am happy but In all truth I am close to breaking down. Lord, please tell me things will get better. Please tell me what I need to know. I need you now Lord.I need strength. I have given too much to this boy and he has taken as much, equally. What do I do?